when I commit to a person, I FUCKING COMMIT. if their depression, anxiety or life comes knocking, you bet your ass i’m at the door with a double sided axe waiting for a good fight.
you cant expect people, to always be happy, even if they are in love. because life doesn’t stop for anyone. But you can be there for the good fight.
my god why can’t everyone be like this
My insides are jelly and everything is shaking. I’m gonna be alone and i’m gonna be fine. Everything bad will pass in time. I’m horribly co-dependant but i will learn to manage on my own. This i keep telling myself and if i tell myself that often enough i will believe it one day. No matter how awful i feel, i will get through everything one day at a time. Take care of the kids, bills, chores. One single thing at a time. Don’t crowd your thoughts and take your medicine when you feel like you’re paralyzed by terror and helplesness. Don’t give up you slow-to-learn fuck. You can learn. You have learned *so* much other stuff and you can learn these things too. Stop alienating people. Try to see things as not as personal. No one is attacking you.